Firstly I’d like to thank Angela (a.k.a. Unapologetically Angie) for tagging me to do this post. I must admit, I get a little excited when people tag me in things because it’s nice to know somebody has thought of me (or perhaps I’m just needy…). ANYWAY onto the questions:
1. What is the one thing getting you down at the moment?
Honestly, the fact that my mental health (or lack of) is forcing me to miss out on so many amazing experiences that I should be having at my age. I’m constantly passing on meals out, birthday celebrations and nights out with friends because it either involves food and drink or causes me too much anxiety (or in most cases, both!). I desperately want to get my life back, rather than only ever being ‘the sick one’.
2. What is something that makes you happy?
Going to a craft shop or basically anywhere that sells cute stationery. I could spend hours in a craft shop (you think I’m joking). Seeing a shelf stacked full of more multi-coloured pens than you can possibly imagine fills my heart with pure joy. And don’t even get me started on notebooks, planners and journals. Some other things that make me happy are: tea, tea and tea (and bunnies).
3. Name 3 guilty pleasures
1. Buying more pens than I need (I definitely don’t need that many pens).
2. Buying more washi tape than I need (although I would argue you can never have too much washi tape).
3. Just generally buying stuff (goodbye Mr. Overdraft). Note: I do not encourage my irresponsible spending behaviour.
4. What one thing would you like to improve about yourself?
My confidence. Self-doubt is always something I’ve struggled with throughout my teenage years, so it would be nice to be able to believe in myself a bit more!
5. When was the last time you belly laughed?
It doesn’t take much to make me laugh and I have quite a silly sense of humour so I should think it was fairly recently! I can’t think back to a specific time but chances are I was laughing at something that nobody else found funny (like my own jokes…).
6. What is your biggest insecurity/fear?
I have too many insecurities to list but if I had to choose my biggest, I would say a fear of embarrassing myself in front of people or them thinking I’m weird (is that two?). I’m cripplingly self-conscious when in social situations because I’m terrified that I’m going to do/say something that people think is bat-shit crazy!
7. Name a song that always cheers you up.
‘That’s My Girl’ by Fifth Harmony. A friend at university was obsessed with this song and sang it to no end throughout last year’s lectures which would drive me crazy but it’s also one of the happier memories I’ve taken from my first year of uni.
8. Name 3 things you like about yourself.
I’d like to think I’m a good listener and quite non-judgemental. I mean, it’s human nature that we all automatically judge people in our heads but I make an effort to analyse my judgements and consider the other person’s perspective in a situation before accepting my judgements as ‘right’. I also like that I’m a deep thinker, even though that trait is simultaneously the bane of my life and pretty much the root of all of my problems!
9. What is an achievement that has made you proud of yourself this year?
I’m proud that despite my recent relapse with anorexia, and the fact that I had to finish my university year from home, I still managed to achieve good results in first year. I’m especially proud of myself for sitting my Psychobiology exam in May and passing it because at one point I didn’t think I was going to manage to sit it!
10. Tell us your happiest memory.
When I was fourteen, we went on a family holiday on a cruise. I found the experience of looking out over the sea at sunrise & sunset absolutely magical. I don’t think anything has made me feel more at peace.
I tag anybody who would like to have a go at this themselves (code for: I’m a loner who doesn’t speak to any other bloggers).
Thank you for reading.
– Lisa x