So yesterday, I uploaded my first ever video to Youtube (so what? There are hundreds of thousands of videos on Youtube already!). I know that this won’t seem like a massive deal for some, but for me it was quite an achievement. I have struggled with low self-esteem for as long as I can remember – so to upload such an open and honest video for all to see (she says, as if many people are actually going to watch) took all of my courage.
I really feel as though I’ve ‘bared all’ in this video (not literally, because that would be concerning). I certainly haven’t tried to ‘sugar-coat’ the reality of my life right now – and the reality of living with mental illness in general. No, it’s not perfect. I did not attempt to conceal the ‘real me’ with a perfectly put-together backdrop and polished appearance. It’s just me, along with my many insecurities, talking to my phone (under the strict observation of my dog!).
If you take the time to watch my video, then I thank you. If you take the time to leave a (friendly) comment, then I thank you some more. And if you can’t bear to watch, simply due to the fact that I do not own a camera that cost more than my rent, and look as though I haven’t left my bed in days (I probably hadn’t…) then there are plenty of other people on Youtube that you can watch! 🙃
Thanks for reading (and/or watching),